New things don’t always start with a bang. Sometimes things sizzle, pop, float, sign or laugh into existence. It is a new year and although many will have been coming up with a list of resolutions which will be most likely forgotten halfway through the year, for me, I prefer to use the time to think about what is most important to me.
Yes, I could do with losing some weight – my healthier lifestyle crashed and burnt over the last month of so with the lead up to the house move and the festive season. It is no real excuse and I will get back on top of my shit soon. I am not too worried. I would like to learn some new languages, however like with all scholastic endeavours, I simply don’t have the time to devote to these things. Well, I do have time. Time is what you make it. However I do not currently wish to subtract time from other pursuits so the end result is essentially the same.
My goals for this year are more personal than that. Firstly, I hope to continue to count myself lucky with the family and friends that surround me. They all play an important role in my life and some in particular, I would be completely lost without. I hope to laugh more and cry less. I hope that I don’t hurt anyone, or feel pain myself. With all of us having free will, it can be rather impossible not to hurt someone else, whether by intention or not, however, I do hope that my actions and words do not cause others pain. Life is hard enough without making things harder on each other.
I hope to breathe more and worry less. I can become a little ball of stress and I really do have to get better at controlling it, instead of allowing it to control me.
I hope to laugh until it hurts, and then laugh some more. Laughter really is the best medicine and I believe we should all have a dose of it every single day.
I hope that those that I rely on, know that they can rely on me. The world can be a lonely place, however when you have someone special in your corner, all things seem possible.
I hope to love freely and deeply without the fear of being hurt. I wish this for everybody.
I wish for peace. Not world peace, I do not think that is something that I can personally strive for – I will leave the wishing for that to contestants of beauty pageants (although it would certainly be nice). I wish for peace within my own heart and mind. I always have far too much racing through my head, too many feelings weighing down my heart. I need to let go.
I hope that this year is better than the last. Not that last year was bad, it was full of ups and downs that kept me guessing.
We shall just have to see what 2018 brings.